Life as it may be ( End)

The next day was hell, so was the other day and the other day and so may other days, I was taught how to pole swing, and strip, and dance and seduce, how to wear skimpy barley  there cloths, I was taught how to entertain drunks and gamblers with my naked self, the worse was while others were making cool tips from all these, the tips I made was collected from me as part of my debt, I mean my mother's debt learned how to steal, most especially from customers, I give them the sight seeing 

pleasure, dance deductively from the poles and make them forget their senses, once I get the opportunity, that is when am demanding from them tips, I get a hold of either their gold wristwatches, necklaces, rings, most at times money, and then am gone.

                                 Three years in Venice was enough for me to know my mum wasn't coming for me, and I was sure she has forgotten me and everything about me, she probably would tell people I was dead, just like my dad, corny creature, i hated that woman, I still do,I got to realize through gossip and questioning that my dad was the actual debtor, although my mum introduced him to these people, he needed money to jump-start his business and these was the perfect catch, after the money collection, my mum misused most of the money leading to a whole lot of bad debts, out of shame and frustration, anxiety and pressure, my dad killed himself and my mum inherited the debts, well not exactly, I inherited the debt, money I didn't eat out of! 

On February 12th 1999 the boss of the casino came to me, he also has incurred some very bad debt, unlike his father,he didn't know how to run an empire as compromising 

and corny as these, probably made deals with the wrong bosses and dealers,gossip carried that his life is being threatened  and the casino empire can be overthrown by his debtors,he ordered that  I should be well fed that day, I was worn a nice tailored pink ball gown, my auburn hair was parked in a nice dough-nut bun, I was fully made up, black eye shadow wowed  my eye and on my lips, a seductive bright  red lipstick, at first I was happy, I mean it was my birthday so I thought that was my day off and probably he had eyes on me and wanted releasing me from my debt, I saw the way he looked at me, and teases me, I notice the way he tries to stop the other bosses from seriously maltreating me, I observe his spoken words to me, although I have been through hell and back, I was still happy, because I thought that day was a day that might cause a change to my forced debts,  actually it did but in a way I didn't expect, after all the preparations, I was directed into his personal  office and saw him smiling at me, his usual charming dimples made his smile friendly, but he wasn't looking too good, his hair barely arranged and his beard un-shaved, I noticed he came at me in a hurry, held my left hand and then I saw desperation in his eyes, something am too well familiar  with, I did see it in my dads stare, and my mums face as well as my face anytime I look into the mirror,

" is all well, sir Eliot?"    I asked confusedly and watched him direct me to a sit, he didn't say anything till I was sited  

" no Marry! All isn't well, I hate I have to do this to you, I have come to develop a sort of communion with you,but you must understand, I am seriously under pressure"      He replied then paused a little, holding my right hand these time, I could feel the sweat underneath his palm, he sure wasn't joking about being under pressure and my heart raced as I tried to get the answers from his face

" I did a business deal with Fabian, the owner of casinos loans, you know him, he has 

that mighty building that is at the center of Venice, he has been here a couple of times too,".          I heard him explain while I nodded in accordance once I pictured the mans face, an old man that was almost at his 70s

" I had a loan from him, a couple of millions,,,,,,,,and now I have incurred lots of bad debt, debts that can kill me, or ruin my empire.... He did suggest he would relieve me of my debt and all bound to him only if I gave him you......"       He murmured out then I smiled,at least he took his time to pamper and explain it to me, unlike my mother, I wore a brief smile, mixed with frustration it wasn't as though I loved these place, but I had come to adjust to its punishment and lifestyle, made some friends I tolerate and with a little hope that one day I'll leave these place, but now all is ruined, i can't object even though I want to, I think  I may be life 's muse, a pass, I may be life's jock and amusement, after that day I was Fabians wife, then I became somebody Else's call girl when he died,  and then someone Else's amusement, might be a mother to some one next, and then one day I die. Life as it may be to me so far hasn't been fair, it's not been good, but I try to make good use with whatever peanut and  dance track it 

throws at me.

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